This is so painful to type. My tears flow down my cheeks and land on my keyboard. Tonight, my beloved Pomeranian, Roxie, gained her angel wings. For 12 1/2 years, she was my constant furry companion and we were inseparable.
I keep ruminating on the day I got her- the first time I saw her sweet little face. It was love at first sight. It was a cold November evening in 2010 when I met her previous owner in the Wal-Mart parking lot after seeing a social media post entitled, “Full-blooded Palmeranian for sale.” Yes, they misspelled Pomeranian, but that detail is something I look at with love.
I contacted the owner and told her that I was interested in the little dog and she sent me a picture of her entitled, “This is Roxy.” The picture only sealed the deal. I changed the spelling of her name because I thought that dropping the y and adding the ie made the name more ladylike.
I met the girl that evening with the forty dollars she asked for. She then handed me the puppy and to see her sweet face for the first time in person, I loved her even more. The girl then handed me what was left of her puppy food and we parted ways.
I made a mad dash into Wal-mart to get a new leash, a large bag of puppy food, a bag of puppy snacks, a dog bowl, some puppy toys, and a dog bed. It was a cool November evening, so it was safe to leave her in my car. Twenty minutes later, I came back to the car, loaded the dog care items into the trunk, and drove her home.
As Roxie, grew, she became more and more beautiful- long hair, bushy tail, she was a beautiful little lady. I would take her on long walks. Also, I would take her outside and throw the ball for her to fetch. And she fetched it, then would come back, stop in front of me, and drop the ball on the ground.
She always slept pressed next to me on my bed. There wasn’t a night she didn’t sleep with me and I loved it when she’d follow me from room to room. I used to get down in the floor and play with her and make sure to give her lots of love and affection.
Roxie was my sidekick, my best friend. And though, in time, I may get another puppy, Roxie can never be replaced. No other pet will ever take her place in my heart. She was brilliantly smart and was an outgoing little dog and to see her and know her was to love her. She was very affectionate and would always jump on my lap and lick my face.
It’s going to be tough and I don’t how I’m going to get through this overwhelming sadness that fills my heart. Being without my baby is going to take a lot of getting used to. I do know that I will smile again eventually and I will remember her with a smile rather than tears and weeping.
Tonight, I held you one last time.
Rest easy my sweet Roxie. I will see you again in Heaven some day. 🐾🐾
November 8, 2010 – January 11, 2023
My comisserations
Thank you, Derrick. She was my baby.
The friendship of an animal companion is something so precious, only those who have had the love of a dog, a cat, or any other animal, can understand. I’ve lost furbabies myself… It’s awful. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much. 💖 Roxie was my baby and she was a part of me.
Oh Cherie, that is awful! I’m impressed that you found the will to write this blog so soon… it took me 3 days to be able to see the keyboard well enough to blog about Mr. M crossing the rainbow bridge… and we’d been expecting him to pass for months (cancer) and the vet had given him a couple months, but he lasted 6.
I firmly believe cats and dogs have souls that allow them to watch over us as well as join us in the next life. Perhaps Roxie and Mr. M are even friends.
It was hard to write, Jeanne. I literally bawled as I typed and had to take several breaks. And I just finished another crying spell today. I knew it was coming because she’d been sick for months. Then this past weekend, she stopped eating and taking water.
I started a new job Monday. Yesterday, I went to work, then came home last evening and Roxie was in the floor, barely alive. I knew then she was dying. She hung on long enough for me to get home to her.
I got down in the floor with her and loved on her. I looked in her eyes and let her know that I loved her and that I was there.
I got up long enough to go to the bathroom amd when I came back, she was gone. I made her a bed in a box and put her in. I still have her with me because my husband was on the road last night and wasn’t home. When he gets home, we will bury her in our back yard and I will decorate her grave.
I’m so sorry about Mr. M, Jeanne. I know how much he meant to you because Roxie meant the world to me. Know that he’s watching over you like Roxie is watching over me.
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Terribly sorry to learn of this, Cherie. Extending my sincerest condolences.
Thank you so much, Monch!
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Aum Shanti
Thank you, Shanti!
So sorry for your loss, Cherie! <3
Thank you so much 💖 This means more than you know.
Deepest sympathy
Thank you so much Alice. 💖
Sending hugs to you.
Thank you so much, Tamara. 💖 🫂
I cannot imagine how you must be feeling right now. Before I got my current Shih Tzu, Buddy, I had two turtles. They were already sick when I got them (which I found out too late), so I only had them a couple of months before they passed away. When they did, I wept so hard…
Now, my dog Buddy is my best pal, brings joy and laughter with his antics every day. I can’t comprehend the day when I will have to let him go… Biggest hugs from me and Buddy, Cherie <3 Roxie is now your furry Angel… <3
Thank you so much, Celt. 💖 And I wish your Buddy a long and healthy life. Our furbaby’s are furry little humans in our eyes and the love we have for them is equivalent to the love we have for another human. I hope my furry little angel visits me from time to time. And I’m so sorry about your turtles.
Sorry to read this Cherie! ☹️💔 Dogs can become like family! ❤️ May she Rest in Peace! 🤞🙏😁
Thank you so much, Ken. 💖 And yes, Dogs are family.
My heart breaks for you. All dogs go to heaven….
Thank you so much, Valerie. 💖 And yes, they sure do. She’s now my furry little angel.
So sorry, Cherie! This is hard.
It really is. Thank you so much, Crystal.
Ahh.. Sorry for your loss, my friend!
Thank you so much, Vidal. 💖
Many condolences
Thank you so much, Sheree. 💖
Cherie, I’m sorry for the loss of your beautiful, sweet companion.
Thank you so much Mary. 💖 Bless you!
Oh Cherie, I’m soooo sorry for your loss of sweet Rosie! What a love and beautiful baby… your sweet baby that gave so much to your loving heart. Bless her crossing and your heart as the memories of her love linger on inside forever! 💗
Thank you so much, Cindy. 💖 It’s going to be hard living without her. She brought so much joy to my life. But I believe she’ll be waiting for me when I get to Heaven.
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Thank you so much! ❤️
So very sad for you. They have our hearts in their paws.
They sure do, Sandy. 🐾 Thank you so much! ❤️
I’m so sorry to read this. I lost my beloved 16-year-old cat at the end of 2022, and it’s so, so hard. Sending you love from Virginia!
Thank you so much, Katie. This means a lot. I’m so sorry for the loss of your furbaby. Blessings to you always
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It’s clear to see how much you loved Roxy and it’s hard when you lose a family member. Many condolences Cherie.
Thank you so much, Michael! 💖 I did- I loved her so much and still do.